Pictured: My Grandma in her final days & my daughter (6 months old)
In a couple of minutes you will officially be gone for two years. I’m not holding back the tears that are silently rolling down my face. The tears that you once wiped away when I was a little girl or even as an adult.
It’s so hard to accept it.
To accept that youre not here anymore.
To accept that I cant see your smiling face, physically.
To accept that you will never be here to make chile con queso.
To accept that its not fair that Nattie didnt spend more time with you.
To accept that I just cant go to your apartment and just hug you.
To accept that I have to visit a grave to talk to you.
To accept that I wont hear you laugh again.
I used to call your cell phone. I used to have conversations with my mom about going somewhere and ask her if she had invited you. I used to deny that you were gone. It was hard to finally accept that you were just gone.. That day, the day of the viewing, was a real life nightmare. I kept on telling George that you were just sleeping and for him to wake you up.
You are needed here. Everyone needs you. Your daughters. Your sons. Your Grandchildren. Your Great Grandchildren. Your friends. The whole world. You made an impact on everyone you met and your smile will be known as that smile that lit up the darkest of days.
I love you and I miss you with all my heart.
I wrote a post for Blogathon about my lovely grandmother, you can click here if want to read it
Tags: abuelita, colon cancer, grandma
this was beautiful. i know your abuelita loved it.
.-= becky @therealbecks´s last blog ..Crappy family member update =-.
After the first few sentences I was in tears. It’s been 12yrs since my grandmother passed and it still brings me to tears.
This was a beautiful post and I’m so sorry for your loss. truly