I can finally BREATHE.

I am no longer behind in NaNoWriMo! Im sitting on exactly 40,000 words right now and Im feeling gooood I’m actually where Im supposed to be today and it took like almost forever to catch up, but I finally did it! Now I just need 10,000 more words and I’m DONE

Can you see how far behind I was for a couple of days? That was around the time that I got a really bad cold and wanted to quit so bad.  Why didn’t I quit? Because my friends would have kicked my ass!

Writing a fifty (forty for now) word novel has been so hard on me, on my body, and mind. You have no idea what time I go to sleep (9am the next day) and you dont know how my eyes look at the moment (like a zombie).

But what I really wanted to say is that I couldnt have made it without the people that supported me; my friends, some of my family, and complete strangers. And for those who didnt think I could do it, I’ll rub their face in my book once I get it (thats one of the incentives of finishing the novel) and spit in their face. Okay, I wont do the last one but that doesnt mean Im not thinking about it.

Writing a novel about the Holocaust is really…. hard and depressing. Even as youre writing a terrible scene you cant help but cry, even if youre the one writing it. Its painful just to even write it out. Right now, she is about to go to Auschwitz and thats all I’m going to say because I might give away too much information.

Here are two little excerpts (that youve already seen before):

I pulled the silky sheets over him and pulled him towards me. “Make love to me.” I pleaded. He lowered his body to mine and went inside me slowly, making every part of my body scream in excitement.

We had no choice but to eat it from the ground. The potatoes had mold on it but if we didnt eat it we would die from starvation. It smelled foul and no one dared to say anything when the officers laughed at us for eating it.

Those are two different excerpts written for different chapters. Just a little preview to show you what type of novel I’m writing. I really dont know the genre my novel is going to be under since its really more of a Historical Romance mixed with facts and fiction and has Vampires so take youre pick of the three LOL

I’m proud of myself for not going back and editing anything. It took a lot of will power and strength to not go back and rewrite that sentence, or that paragraph, or that whole chapters. There were many (ok mostly) times that I wanted to just grab the whole thing and drag it (mac-talk) to the thrash can. Even if I dont finish along with everyone else, Im still proud of myself for coming this far just 10K shy of finishing.

So wish me luck, strength, good vibes and whatever else you send to a sleep deprived novelist. And you could send that coffee iv drip right about now. Thank you all again, really, you guys have supported me a lot and thanks for listening to me whine and cyber kicking my ass into writing again! You guys rock

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